I walk on a road lush with dreams,
a road of forgotten and veiled dreams,
sometimes slowly, sometimes gaily,
sometimes lost, sometimes profound,
I walk a road of unknown mysteries,
fervently finding my way through the endless path.....

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Time- where art thou ?

While reading a book which spoke of pre-British raj India which also meant pre- modern, technology devoid days. When fans instead of mobile phones toggled in common man's hand and live 'mujras' supplemented entertainment in contrast of cozy T.V sets and multiplexes of today.

What astonished and amazed me was not just the simplicity of life then but also the fact that virtues like wisdom and concentration reigned as an everyday existence.
The people's day then could accommodate almost everything ranging from their everyday chores to flying pigeons and words like 'procrastination' or 'stress' had no meaning.

What stuck me was why can't we, the so-called impatient and super fast, ultra modern, tech savvy generation find 'real' time in the same 24 hours of the day? Why words like 'stress' and 'depression' are hovering even on the minds of a 12 year old? Going by logic and basic sense,our lives should not just have been turmoil free but also with an abounding of leisure time at our disposal.

Contrary to it we are sleep deprived even when Google does our researches for us, got no time to spare for our relatives or return back calls even when writing letters has been replaced by SMSs and instant messages.

My grandmother often tells me that during her youth people waited endlessly, counting day after day as to when a new week or month would arrive. While today an hour passes at a lightening speed and so does an year! Some 70 days left to bid adieu to 2011, whatever happened to the remaining 295 days?
It seems as if 'time' suffers from an auto immune disorder- gobbling its own self!

Where on earth is this 'commodity' called time vanishing?
And whats even more relevant is how can we hold it back?  
Wouldn't it be great if we could live in timelessness?

Well, coming to 'timelessness'. It indeed is a very complex subject in itself. But after much contemplation I realized that this is the only way to 'live effectively in time' and 'use time in the most effective manner.'

Literally speaking timelessness means - eternal , ageless or immortal. Although it has much more to offer just like alchemy and astrology had to offer to the human race.

To live is timelessness within time means to to live in moments and each moments separate of the previous or the next. All those who have some idea of quantum mechanics would appreciate that its nature is in similarity with the dual nature of light which comes in to us packets (the particle theory) , each one separate of the other yet we see light is a ray. That's how timelessness too connects those distinct moments.

If we try to concentrate NOT on the ticking of clock second by second but on moments we live, utilizing each of these packet (moments) to the best of our ability with the faith that whatever we have right now is what JUST exists we will see that not only will our productivity increase but our concentration spans will soar high too. Probably then 24hours if not enough, will at least give us a sense of accomplishment and fullness.
And 'time' will earn its true value in our lives once again.

PS : This post is far from over. The concept may sound weird to many of the readers. I will try and elaborate more on this concept in my coming post.And do let me know what is your idea of 'timelessness' and how do you perceive the existence of such a thing. 
Plus this analogy of timelessness to particle nature of light is purely my own perception so if you find any loop holes do let me know!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Its a climb....

I know people change. Change so subtly that is takes days to believe the existence of something that was imperceptible before.

I know people turn their back.I have seen them hiding their faces like the evening sun which dips ever so slowly somewhere in the horizon and darkens all that's around, while you stand patiently for the dingy light to be thrust upon.

I know people back stab.I have felt them poking those incessant punches on me like the merciless winds in a vast, hot, sandy desert which away extracts all moisture and vitality and depresses one deep in the restless sand.

I know it because life blessed me with relations and thrust upon me the intricacies of dealing with people. People who promised to never change and relations which were as sturdy as huge mountains. But nothing can change the nature of change for it has to change!
And its no more surprising yet an irony as to how the most toughest of glasses shatter easily. Promises that define our being, are our strengths and hope dissolve as soon as we lean onto them perfectly.
I know it because I have leaned onto such promises completely and in a few moments there was a loud thud. so loud that it lost its audibility maybe. For nobody heard anything. But I know it because I felt the silence.

A missing part.
A dissolved promise. 
A dead relation.

Its at times surprising as to how relations build up. The sweetness tends to be dissolved in innumerable and never ending expectations. 
Expectations that climb a ladder of shattering hopes and broken promises.The trouble is we cant do much about it. Its spontaneous. No matter how tough you appear to be, you are bound to expect and be disappointed in return. I know it coz I have had my share of shattered hopes and expectations.

And not just for once but innumerable times.

I wont label my life as one of extraordinary pain or change but yes, I can proudly say that I have had my share till now. No wonder there is more to come. For the pages of destiny cant go blank.They have been filled with an ink that outlines my life. The fact is that I don't have a choice , neither does life have, we both are being played upon by something superior. For 

"he who makes my woes for me
will think about my woes
my brooding over them would be
a greater woe than those" :)