I know people change. Change so subtly that is takes days to believe the existence of something that was imperceptible before.
I know people turn their back.I have seen them hiding their faces like the evening sun which dips ever so slowly somewhere in the horizon and darkens all that's around, while you stand patiently for the dingy light to be thrust upon.
I know people back stab.I have felt them poking those incessant punches on me like the merciless winds in a vast, hot, sandy desert which away extracts all moisture and vitality and depresses one deep in the restless sand.
I know it because life blessed me with relations and thrust upon me the intricacies of dealing with people. People who promised to never change and relations which were as sturdy as huge mountains. But nothing can change the nature of change for it has to change!
And its no more surprising yet an irony as to how the most toughest of glasses shatter easily. Promises that define our being, are our strengths and hope dissolve as soon as we lean onto them perfectly.
I know it because I have leaned onto such promises completely and in a few moments there was a loud thud. so loud that it lost its audibility maybe. For nobody heard anything. But I know it because I felt the silence.
A missing part.
A dissolved promise.
A dead relation.
Its at times surprising as to how relations build up. The sweetness tends to be dissolved in innumerable and never ending expectations.
Expectations that climb a ladder of shattering hopes and broken promises.The trouble is we cant do much about it. Its spontaneous. No matter how tough you appear to be, you are bound to expect and be disappointed in return. I know it coz I have had my share of shattered hopes and expectations.
And not just for once but innumerable times.
I wont label my life as one of extraordinary pain or change but yes, I can proudly say that I have had my share till now. No wonder there is more to come. For the pages of destiny cant go blank.They have been filled with an ink that outlines my life. The fact is that I don't have a choice , neither does life have, we both are being played upon by something superior. For
"he who makes my woes for me
will think about my woes
my brooding over them would be
a greater woe than those" :)
Hey Sarah...thnks for coming by at my space Yarn of ~ Words...woaa!! it'll be fun going thru ur thoughts...when two psychology students meet...sparks of altogether a different tone come up in the air;) will go thru ur posts in some time...right now super busy:P....
ReplyDeletec ya soon:)
Aakriti
Sarah, I love this post a lot.. I love the way you related the back stab with desert wind.. and the ending was good.. * Change * Love this post and the image :-) Happy Weekend..
ReplyDeleteSomeone is Special
Wait...wait....wait...let me collect my thots here a bit.....Woooooooooooooah.....was that an awesome post or what.....Your post is so damn beautiful,I can write an entire blog about this ,praising it to the skies.....You got some sheer talent...my friend....And you come by to my blogs and say that I write well????:-O Wooaah!!!!!!!!!!!!My writings count for zilch compared to urs.....Fantastic...Fabulous....
ReplyDeleteWow..that is so realistic!
ReplyDeleteI am short of words to appreciate your flair. :)
Just keep writing.
God bless :)
Iram
Bloody truth.
ReplyDeleteChange is a part of life and we have to adapt it anyhow.
Change happens and we have no control over it. Some like it some dont, But eitherways ou got to survive it. Change is good but only if it is in the right direction.
ReplyDeleteGreat read!!
Change is the most permanent thing in this world. I love change but not in relationships as it hurts. This post sounds so honest and straight from heart...
ReplyDeleteSaru
@ Aakriti - hey! glad to have u on my blog..well, i m not a psychology student but I have always had a special interest in the subject..so i do plan to study it in the years to come! and sparks will sure fly for v r two die-hard leo lovers..sounds evn better..isnt it? :P
ReplyDelete@SIS - thnks for d appreciation...happy weekend to u too :)
@Rahul - u have already praised it enuf to make me fly to cloud 9..hehe!thnks for d kindest of words and u do write well..no comparisons whatsoever! keep coming :D
@Iram - thnks Don..Was just an attempt to portray the realities of life :)
@Prateek - yup! i read somewhere that 'accepting changes is like a muscle, u need to use it as often as u can to keep it working most efficiently'
@Red handed - A very good point u made out here..v need to channelize our energies in the right direction :)
@Saru - Its hurts like hell...but then thats how life has been going on and will continue in ages to come..thnks for d compliment!
It was something so true Sarah..dunno why people change and turn their back to you..change is good and inevitable but wat abt when the changes pricks and pokes you and lands you in pain ??
ReplyDeleteThe verses were touching!
TC
yes people change...with time, with distances, with status, with everything... its natural ...beautiful analysis and words :)
ReplyDeleteHi Sarah, this is a wonderful post and you've described the human emotions and pain so well. As you said, change is a constant thing and it will bring in its sheer share of happiness too and not just pain. It can't be dark always and the sun has to shine sometime... Great read :)
ReplyDeletePS: Thanks for dropping by my blog. Truly appreciate it!
Anand
Life's like that
I stumbled on your blog from Ashwini's.I skimmed through the latest post and will read again to get the full ensemble.But I wish to say, you write fluently and well
ReplyDeleteA very thougtful and philosphical write up.
ReplyDeletebeautifully narrated..especially the last 4 lines just sums it up all :) :)
ReplyDeleteSo true..events make or break relationships..and yes change is the only constant.
ReplyDelete@ fatima - wen u say that ' change is inevitable'..it kinda answers all queries..and those pokes, pricks and pains r eventually to make u a stronger and wiser being :)
ReplyDelete@Israr - yes..natural and inevitable as i said. thnk u :)
@Anand - well said and ur dropping on my blog is equally appreciated :D
@KP - thnks a lot..hope to c u again!
@ Rahul - thnk u and welcome to d blog :)
@Suku - :))
@Alka - indeed..change is the only constant thing in life :)
Have faith, God has a plan always! easier said than done, but it works for me :) so worth a try?
ReplyDeleteAnd pain, well pain, is necessary in life to grow stronger, never say not to pain....pain can take you much higher than happiness can
Cheers [_]@
Chintu Singh
Nothing can change the nature of change for it has to change!.....how true...could completely relate to every word of this post....i seriously wonder y people change....n wen they change y is it all of a sudden without ne warnin....but as u said destiny needs to fill up our pages and all these happnin teach us somethin important in many ways....:)
ReplyDeleteThis is precisely why we are scared of attachments..why it takes ages to extend our hand for friendship..
ReplyDeleteBut we still seek love because that's what keeps us alive.
the brooding is definitely worse than the woes themselves. but how can we not grieve? and love again? and hope again?
ReplyDeleteHi,
ReplyDeleteI really like..how you expand on you what 'know' and how you felt it...The description is very simple. And that is why it is so beautiful.
Stay Happy. Good Luck.
@chintan - well works 4 me too :D but sometimes u just like to get it out..bus wohi i did!
ReplyDelete@Vaisakhi - awww...u hve such good things to say alwaysss...thnks !
@Purba maam - well said..exactlyyy my point :D
@Sujhatha - yup..its all natural and kinda connected...that how the world goes on and on and on :)
@Kunal - hey! thnks a lot..and i guess u have been to my blog b4..or maybe not :O welcome anyways :D
What surprises me, is the speed at which people change. It takes 10 days to take a major decision for a few of them! I guess its a part of the growing up process, and we need to put up with it.
ReplyDeleteI would rather say that you have related things very well and it makes this more beautiful..
ReplyDeleteThat is a powerful post. You have struck the blows, word by word, para by para. And they have all fallen on the right places. I have a feeling though you could have compressed it a little and trimmed the excess wind.
ReplyDeleteThe end is good, reinforced by the stunning image of the fish jumping into the larger bowl and the quote by Saadi.
Aleena Malik said....
ReplyDeleteThis one was an excellent post like the others. I really like your choice of words. The thing that I love about this post is the originality and the sincerity of it. I guess all the age group can relate to this fact of life. I am simply bamboozled. Keep writing... Best of luck :)